Chapter 23-- Mother's Day

Today is Mother Day and I believe that it has to be one of the day that all restaurants all over the world are looking forward to as cash register will be ringing non-stop come dinner( or even lunch?) time.
Personally, I have never like Mother day because it is just so damn hard to find a proper place for dinner. Everywhere is crowded as people hustle and bustle to show their love for their mothers by treating them to a meal. Anyway, mother day to me is just like any other day because 1.) I am not close to my mother 2.) I am still a student and cannot really afford to bring my mum to a fine restaurant for dinner. Now, the first issue have always been around since I was in secondary school when my rebellious nature kicks in. Even since, my mother and I have always been at loggerhead as none of us would want to back off when we are having arguments. Slowly and perhaps inevitable, I started drifting away from my mum as I gradually master the skills of igonoring her nagging and even her presence( can you believe that we hardly even talk to each other although there are just 2 of us in the house for the whole day? I would simply be surfing the net, watching tv or locking myself in my room while she goes about doing her own stuffs) Perhaps my resentment of her grows even stronger as I could sense that she adopts my brother more and always give in to his request while ignoring mine. Therefore, I always feel a bit of envious whenever I saw people with good relationships with their parents both in real life and reel life. Nevertheless, do not expect me to try on my part to improve my relationship with my mum because I am simply not someone who can express my love easily or freely. I am more of a introvert when it comes to things like this and it already brings me the shudder just thinking about doing such things like giving hugs or kisses(YUCKS!).I would very much prefer for things to go on their nature course. Of course, the purists would comment that I would regret not showing my limited love for my mum and that I would regret it one day when my mum eventually pass away. However, I also hold true to one of my belief that forcing oneself is not an option. To me, not changing my belief is not an act of stubbornness but one of principle.
The second issue belong to a more of a practical one since I believe that if you really want to treat someone to a meal, it would be more appropiate to treat them to at least a restaurant meal. Again, purists might agrue that even a simple hawker fare dinner on mother day would suffice since what our dear mothers really want is to spent quality time with us and would not care so much about the food but I beg to differ because being a super practical(and even selfish?) person, I would say that I am also entitled to great food at the same time while I am spending quality time with my loved ones. A common fact with most my friends that I am a fussy eater, why must I subject myself to simple, bane food especially since I was the one who is going to pay for the meal?
Maybe people might be already scolding me in their heart that I am a unfilial selfish son and I can tell you guys that I definitely do not deny that. To me, I would only treat one well if he or she treat me well. I know that my mum does have done her fair bit of contributions around the house(read doing household chores) but apart from that, she has NEVER try to understand me better. A pity that might last till I enter my grave.

Anyway, hope that my post have not dampen your spirit knowing that I am such a bad son( you could still severe ties with me if that makes you really uncomfortable). But, I would still want to wish hereby a Happy Mother Day to all mothers in the world.

Enjoy your dinner with your beloved mum.

Best Regards,
Yongster